Doctor's Visits and Bad Parenting

So I think I will actually start with the second part of my title first.  I am working so hard at being patient with my young kiddos.  I need to keep reminding myself that they are young, and MOST of what they do is not done to make me mad and they don't yet understand the consequences of some actions.

I am constantly behind on sleep and have been for the past six months.  Six months?  But Kate is only 4 months.  True, but you can never sleep the last couple months of pregnancy!  Being tired makes me a tad bit cranky and my husband and children (and the poor dog) have unfortunately been victims of my ranting at points.

Kate is an angel child, she really is.  She is so happy and just a breathe of fresh air all the time.  She is just starting to sleep for 7-8 hours at a time at night though so waking up 1-2 times a night and still working just gets me down sometimes.

Audrey Mae is two and she is great at being two!  She is a princess and when things do not go her way she lets you know.  Unfortunately we have gotten in some yelling arguments about things and NO ONE wins when you are arguing with a two year old.

Jack has gotten in the nasty habit of hiding my phone.  He drops it behind the couch, shoves it in the recliner, or has even hidden it under the baby.  Yesterday, I had been sitting at the computer with my phone next to me when I ran upstairs to get the kiddos a snack.  I came back down with hot dogs and goldfish crackers.  I then sat down to make a phone call and my phone was gone!  I could feel my blood pressure rising and I turned and asked Jack to get my phone.  He just kept repeating, "Mommy's phone go?" and laughing, which did not improve the situation.  I was getting so mad!  I turned off their movie and moved him away from his snack and toys and asked him again.  He started crying and then just shut down.  I went upstairs to get a drink and there was my phone on the counter . . . where I had left it!  I felt so bad I started to cry!  I had just made my little baby boy cry over a stupid phone!  I went down and apologized but I don't think he really got it.  I turned their movie back on and got him a cookie!

I just continue to tell myself to have more patience, but some days are easier than others.  They are all still learning and I love them so much!

When Kate was born happy and healthy I was so relieved that we wouldn't be having to add more doctor's appointment to the ones that we are already going to!  Well lo and behold she has some fun quirks about her that just need to be checked out along with all the other things going on!

I went on Monday to her pediatrician appointment, got the lecture about waiting on the vaccinations, then he did the exam.  I knew she had a crooked head like Audrey and would probably need a helmet, so we got a referral for that.  Then he looked in her eyes.  Kate was born with a spot on the colored part of her right eye.  I just thought it was a different pigmentation and never really worried about it.  The doctor said I should go see a pediatric opthamologist, just to be sure.  So I called and made the appointment, which was up at Primary's.  They just happened to have a cancellation for 8:00 this morning, or we could wait until May!

We went and everyone oohed and aahed about how cute she was!  They don't usually get ones this little.  Turns out after seeing the doc that Kate has a mole on her eye!  Weird!  It is totally fine and it shouldn't affect her vision at all!  But just to be sure, we are getting an ultrasound done on her eye!  They only had next Wednesday morning available and I am already going to be up there in the afternoon for her helmet appt.  Two trips up there in one day, not my idea of fun! But I was able to get them to squeeze me in at the helmet place earlier!  Yay!

So in a week and a half we will be at Primary's for 5 appointments!  Today, Mon for Jack's dentist, Wed for Kate's eye and helmet, then the following Monday for Jack at the Physiatrist.  Now don't get me wrong I am not trying to be a Debbie Downer and complain . . . again. It's just a lot for my "healthy" kids!

I love my life!  Even though I gripe and moan some days, it's just because I am being tested and I need to remember that.  I have a wonderful supportive husband (who I suprised with a fun trip to Arizona!) who works two jobs to support us!  My kids are so fun and the majority of every day is spent happy and having fun!  I love to wrestle with them, hug them, kiss them, cuddle them, read them stories, and just be around them.  I can't wait to get to know them more!  Each has such a unique personality and I love all three!